My brother has been a married man for 2 hours now. I decorated his room in his new house with vanilla scented things. Candles, air spray, etc. I also gave him and his new wife some cool toys and needed, um, nessecities. He he. I took pics and will prob post them shortly. Awww Go check them out!

Becky

I'm totally happy for him!

I am currently in class. If the following is slightly jumbled it is because I'm trying to listen to my teacher at the same time.
I have been told before (by my father) that I am hard to get along with. I never understood what it is about me that makes me hard to get along with. And all my friends want to sugar coat things and say "it's their loss if they don't like you" or "No Becky you are different from people but that's why I love you." Well I didn't need that. I want someone to be blunt with me when I ask questions like that.
Today at work there is a girl I work with. I really enjoy her company. There are people in this world that I merely tolerate their company. This one girl had a project going and I had either finished mine or did not have one. She had quite a few things ahead of her on her list of "chores" so I jumped in and helped out. She wondered how to do one thing and so I offered her what I knew. What happened later made me think back on this and I wondered if I began to over step my boundaries?
Later I saw her doing a new chore and she didn't know how to do it correctly. (She merely had never done this thing, was never taught yet.) So I helped her with that. I didn't know how to make it sound... nice?... so I was just kinda blunt with a pleasant tone of voice. She disappeared off the floor for a few minutes and over the radio my boss told me he wanted me in such and such place. Then she reappeared from the back room. I have a feeling she got upset with me. Maybe she felt like I was... stepping in to much? I mean... if I know how something is done correctly and you don't shouldn't I stop you before you get too far into your project? I would want someone to do the same thing for me. I would HATE to do something and spent 30 minutes to do it just to find out someone WATCHED me do it wrong. I would want someone to help me so I don't touch everything a second time. Right the first time... right???
But she felt offended I think and now I feel bad. I really like talking to her. She's a sweet girl and funny and makes the day go by faster. All that stuff that makes work fun. I would hate to hurt her feelings.

My brother and I are very much alike. We joke about the same stuff and in turn understand each other's humor. We enjoy the same activities and take each other out every now and again. We also seem to get into trouble in the same ways. Everyone knows the most trouble I have been in, hands down, was my 24 hours in a jail cell for a stupid traffic violation that I never knew exsisted. That's right eveybody my brother is in jail and might be there longer then 24 hours. It seems that he could be there for 2 who days and nights. He was picked up on a warrant (after getting pulled over for speeding) yesterday (Tuesday) morning around 10:30. There was a warrant issued a lil under a year ago for an event that was thought to have been taken care of. Nothing was ever sent to the family in the mail about this warrant. No one knew it exsisted. Now because Montgomery county can't seem to get thier *insert a few choice words here* act together He has to sit in a holding cell for 48 hours or more. As of 3:30 today the registering process was FINALLY started but still had not been completed. MORE THEN 24 HOURS AFTER THE FACT they get to him. The process is still not completed though and the judge (who needs to set a bail amount) has gone for the day. There is a chance he might get to see a night time judge but that is only if there are something like 15 people in total that needs to be seen. Raven honey, I hope you read this so you know why Tony ain't around for a while. I'm sure you don't know yet.So, my family have officially been robbed at gun point. The gop carrys a gun and the government is going to get at least 2 grand. Not to mention the tow company got 300 this morning (when we were FINALLY told where the car was.) And of course they're running a sham and wanted cash only the *more cuss words here* idiots. I fully beleive that the government WILL fall apart in my expected lifetime and I will be on the front lines shooting the place up when that time comes. A revolution needs to take place because that is the only way this country will become clean and holy again. I wonder if the Lord has withdrawn his protection and taken away the title of "a choice land above all others" yet.I need more stuff for my camera so I can properly document the downfall of this country (and subsequently the world). Who's with me! *great now I'm going to be monitered by the Bush adminitration for this blog. It'll get to the government and my life will be a living hell from now on. Wish I could hold onto my constitutional rights but I know that's all a lie nowadays. When a cop can rob a man at gunpoint.*

Well my life has taken a turn for the dramatic. A friend from the past has shown back up. She wants to make things better for herself and I'm very happy for her. However this is total dejavu! Drama every day I see her. I am not at liberty to divulge more then that. I do not know her whereabouts but I do get regular updates from her parents and I talk to her quite a bit. When its all said and done I am writting her story and publishing it. She gets royalties.

Becky

OMG People,
I turned 22 on the 18th. That was ok. I was in Arkansas with friends etc and had a blast. However on the way home I got pulled over. Then I was arrested. Yes, sweet lil ole Becky who would never break the law (anymore ahem.. kidding) I spent the friggin night in jail. I'm waiting for my father to come home. He has spent 3000 bucks to help get me, my car and fines taken care of. I feel like a child who broke mom's fav vase or something and she has said "Just wait till your father comes home." I know I'm going to get an ear full and I deserve it. I wish there was some other solution to my situation though. It's not like I robbed something or got caught drinking or something. The only thing I did was fail to pay a yearly fee for "points" on my driving record. Stupid Texas law. I totally forgot this stupid new law until I got arrested. Honest to goodness I didn't skip on it on purpose. I only forgot and that's the end of that.
Now I'm going to be living through hell-o at home. I might loose my job for a lack of a way to get to work (Its an hour drive one way!). Maybe this job thing will work ok for the best. I've been wanting to change jobs. I can't stand the medical feild anymore. OMGsh if any of you read this PLEASE call me. Or hug me if you get the chance. That was tramatic. I need rides now too. Ugh. I HATE this.
I heard someone getting beat, I had nasty men watch me pee through my cell door, the stench and filth crawled on me when i sat down. I could feel it. It was nauseating. Matthew Mcconaughey said it best. "Jail's not cool."

I am beautiful inside. I don't like my outward looks but I'm changing that. Let me explain further.

And I would be OK with my looks if it was healthy but it's not. I feel old because I'm over weight. I can't do something things that I should be able to do.

I don't want to change for men but my thoughts are inevitable.
Thoughts: If i do change (for me) how would guys treat me different? I have an idea. But I won't say it out loud, here, in this email.

I have decided I'm doing it for my health. Mainly. But I do have other not so important reasons. I'll loose weight for the same reason girls wear makeup. To live up to the image a guy wants to believe in. It's my duty to look good for another guy. I wouldn't want him to go unwashed and uncologned... He wouldn't want me to be over weight.

It's not a bad thing. None of these thoughts are depressing to me. Just a fact of life and that's ok with me. Guys are hard wired like they are for a reason. It goes back to adaptation. Survival of the fittest. Etc etc...ya know guys like boobs and butts... And girls like muscles and broad shoulders. We bear the children and breast feed so its important for us to have equipment suitable for that purpose. Guys hunt (figuratively speaking) and protect the families. They need to be strong and healthy and intimidating. How the world works.

The skinny part. I don't know... unless the mind just KNOWS that its unhealthy to be fat and so produces desires based on what would be the safest longest living body type. I will live a shorter life if I'm fat... Maybe a guys mind is just trained to like what will give him the longest time with his love. Hmm... Philosophy. Fun stuff.

Then when a guy and a girl marries and they change in looks with age. They already love each other to much (hypothetically) to worry about the looks anymore. The reasons for staying together change. Hopefully the guy or the girl doesn't stay stuck in the superficial world of looks past aging... cause they won't be the same beautiful that they were... Perhaps a different beautiful. A "mature beautiful". Like a big old tree is beautiful compared to the little baby skinny thing (which is cute).

What do you think? Agree or disagree? Are these the words that properly explain things for the purpose of saying it ou loud?

The Power of God

So some things I've been thinking about.
If god has to work within the laws of science, what sort of science would support the parting of the red sea? Or the ability of angels (definition of angels Resurrected or translated beings. one with a body) to pass through inanimate objects (walls).
Well the red sea has been studied and at certain points in the water itself it has been witnessed that winds can actually partially move the water to the sides. There might have been winds strong enough to move all of the water at one point, AND there is some evidence to support the story of the Egyptians being drowned (metal objects or gold coins (or something) at the bottom etc.)
Or perhaps the angels going through things like walls would be explained by the molecular structure of those beings. It has been theorized that all matter is made up of what is called "strings". Strings are lengths of energy vibrating in a particular way to look like, say.... a piece of paper, or a hair. The strings make up quarks (which are documented) and quarks make up atoms which make up cells etc etc etc you know the rest. So angels could have the same types of things to make their bodies yet they vibrate on a different frequency that allows the atoms to be a certain distance apart that won't bump into the atoms of the walls. This is something I'd have to explain to you in person... I can use my hands to make it easier to demonstrate...

But anyways I have been thinking about spiritual things and whatnot. I choose to live my life in a certain way because I'm not here for the life itself. I'm here for whats to come after I die. And I have been thinking ALOT about some things I should change, or rather WHAT things should i change to get to where I want to go. And I've been thinking about how COOL it would be to be there because I'm also fasinated with the concept of vampires (not drinking blood, but the powers they have) and living forever and exsisting in the future times and being able to know the past as if i was there too. And its not just a fantasy to me cause I beleive that I will actually get to see everything. Which brings up something else i think about all the time.

Humans only use 10 of their brains. (But its argued that this is false. Read what Bill Nye The Science Guy has to say! Its quite reasonable too.) I think God made it that way on purpose so that we wouldn't remember what we did before this life (so that we could live this life on faith and be tested etc and to prove ourselves worthy/admirable/what have you). BUT what could we be capable of if we used more brain power? I think we could see heaven whenever we wanted because our eyesight would be improved. (this is hard to understand too without being in person...) I think we could do things that we call super-human feats, like talk telepathically, or move things with our minds. That would be so Freaking cool! But I think we COULD do things like that if only we had use or more of our brains...